David thought he could have Uriah killed and no one would notice, no one would care. But God cared! God cared about Uriah and God cared about the choices David was making. God loved David enough that He desired to find a way to bring David back to Himself and continue to bless David. God desires the same for us when we fall away from Him.

All of us must die eventually. Our lives are like water spilled out on the ground, which cannot be gathered up again. But God does not just sweep life away; instead, he devises ways to bring us back when we have been separated from him (2 Samuel 14:14).

These were the words of a woman from Tekoa who had a reputation for great wisdom. Her words came to David at a time when he was angry with his son Absalom for killing his half-brother Amnon, even though he had good reason to administer justice (Amnon had raped Absalom’s sister, Tamar, and then sent her away in shame) – 2 Samuel 13.

In response to Tekoa’s words and the request of Joab, David chose to extend grace to Absalom by letting him return to Jerusalem but he continued to ban his son from his presence. Even when Absalom rebelled against David and tried to take the kingdom from him, David’s heart had been changed by the knowledge that God values life. He commanded Joab, “For my sake, deal gently with young Absalom” (18:5). When Absalom was killed in battle, Joab knew this would not be good news for David, even though Absalom had been so disloyal to his father (18:20). At the news of Absalom’s death, David cried, “O my son Absalom! My son, my son Absalom! If only I had died instead of you! O Absalom, my son, my son.” – (18:33)

The way in which God loves us and values each life changed David and it can change us too. Perhaps we have good reason to stay angry or refuse to forgive someone, but we must remember that we have sinned against God yet he loves us enough to continue to draw us to Him – to want a personal relationship with us. If God is willing to forgive us, will we allow him to do a miracle in our hearts, giving us the strength to forgive others?

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. – 2 Peter 3:9

Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. – Luke 6:37

Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you. – Ephesians 4:31-32

God does not just sweep life away. When I was a teenager, I asked God to break my heart at what breaks His. I believe in response to that prayer, God called me to the prolife ministry. I believe it breaks the heart of God when the lives of the unborn are devalued. I also read the above scriptures and know in my heart that God loves the mothers who have chosen abortion. He loves them enough to want them to come to repentance so that He can forgive them and restore them.

If you are in need of forgiveness today, know that your Savior loves you. Know that God is not done with you, He does not just sweep your life away. As He loved David, He loves you! As He forgave David, He wants to forgive you. He has not given up on you but continues to devise ways to draw you back to Him. Perhaps today is the day to stop resisting His pull and allow God to change your heart as He changed the heart of David.

One of the most common plotlines in movies and television sitcoms is also one of the most frustrating to watch. The main character makes a mistake and tells a lie to cover up the truth, but then they have to tell another lie and then another lie to cover up the first lie. Everything becomes a mess, the truth comes out, and they realize it would have been better to just tell the truth right away. I think this is the plot of every “I Love Lucy” episode.

This morning David is that main character. David takes a break from the battlefield and goes up on his roof to walk around. From there he sees Bathsheba, the wife of Uriah, taking a bath. In this moment, David makes a choice. God is telling him to look away but the enemy is telling him to look closer. God is telling David you can’t have that and the enemy is telling David you need that, you deserve that – after all, you’re the king!

This is the moment when David makes a huge mistake – not an accident but a choice. He gives in to temptation and to his own fleshly desires instead of listening to the Spirit. David’s behavior is self-serving, instead of God-serving. David did not fall into sin, he stepped into it. When Bathsheba becomes pregnant with David’s child, David makes another choice. Instead of confessing his sins, he tries to cover up his indiscretions through manipulation and lies and then murder.

If you read through this story in 2 Samuel 11, take notice that Uriah the Hittite is not even an Israelite and yet he is so dedicated that he refuses to go home and be with his wife as long as the Ark and the army are out on the battlefield. David, on the other hand, is less concerned about his soldiers and the safety of the Ark and more concerned about himself.

When did this shift happen? In 2 Samuel 6:14, David is dancing before the Lord with all his might, rejoicing that the Ark of God was coming to the City of David. In Chapter 7, the Lord is reminding David of where he was and to what God has brought him – “I took you from tending sheep in the pasture and selected you to the leader of my people Israel. I have been with you wherever you have gone, and I have destroyed all your enemies before your eyes” (7:8-9). It would have been wise for David to remember all had done for him. It would have helped David to remember that God was with him wherever he went – even when he was sinning in secret, God knew all.

So the Lord sent Nathan the prophet to tell David this story: “There were two men in a certain town. One was rich, and one was poor. The rich man owned a great many sheep and cattle. The poor man owned nothing but one little lamb he had bought. He raised that little lamb, and it grew up with his children. It ate from the man’s own plate and drank from his cup. He cuddled it in his arms like a baby daughter. One day a guest arrived at the home of the rich man. But instead of killing an animal from his own flock or herd, he took the poor man’s lamb and killed it and prepared it for his guest.” David was furious…Then Nathan said to David, “You are that man!” – 2 Samuel 12:1-7a

David confessed his sin and suffered greatly due to the consequences of his first sin and the many sins he committed in an attempt to cover up the first. God forgave David but there were consequences and David’s baby lived only 7 days. This is where the movie might end but David’s story continues. God forgives David and still has a plan for his life.

The enemy has plans for us today, plans to trip us up and lead us into temptation. God has another plan – a plan that involves keeping our focus on Him and saying “no” to temptation. God will give us the strength to follow Him today. We were just worshipping and praising God yesterday, weren’t we? Let’s not forget who He is, who we were and who we now are in Christ! Let’s make a choice today – let’s choose God and walk away from sin.

After Saul and his sons were killed in a battle against the Philistines, David wept. Israel anointed David king and he led them in battle against the Jebusites, capturing Jerusalem which is now known as the City of David. David became more and more powerful – BECAUSE GOD WAS WITH HIM (2 Samuel 5:6-10).

Next the Philistines came in an effort to capture David. Now David knew his victories were not because he was a great man but because he served a great God, so he went to the Lord for direction:

So David asked the Lord, “Should I go out to fight the Philistines? Will you hand them over to me?”
Then the Lord replied to David, “Yes, go ahead. I will certainly hand them over to you.”
So David went to Baal-perazim and defeated the Philistines there. “The Lord did it!” David exclaimed. “He burst through my enemies like a raging flood!” So he named that place Baal-perazim (which means “The Lord who bursts through”) – 2 Sam. 5:19-20

While Israel’s first reaction was to celebrate what David had accomplished, David’s first reaction was to celebrate what God had done! He recognized his human abilities vs. the powerful and mighty strength of the God who called him. David knew that once again the battle belonged to the Lord and not to him.

But after a while the Philistines returned and again spread out across the valley of Rephaim. And again David asked the Lord what to do. “Do not attack them straight on,” the Lord replied. “Instead, circle around behind and attack them near the poplar trees. When you hear a sound like marching feet in the tops of the poplar trees, be on the alert! That will be a signal that the Lord is moving ahead of you to strike down the Philistine army.” So David did what the Lord commanded, and he struck down the Philistines all the way from Gibeon to Gezer. – 2 Sam. 5:22-25

Do you hear it? Do you hear the sound of the Lord moving ahead of you? Whatever is ahead of you, inquire of the Lord – ask God for wisdom and direction. Then listen closely to the sound of our great and powerful God going before you, prepared to fight your battles for you. That is the kind of God David served and that is the same God we serve – Praise His name!

I will praise the Lord, who counsels me;
Even at night my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me.
Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken – Psalm 16:8

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you – Psalm 32:8

I lift up my eyes to the hills – where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip – he who watches over you will not slumber.
Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you – the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm – he will watch over your life;
The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore – Psalm 121

For years Saul continued to chase David in an attempt to kill him. Time after time David was given the opportunity to retaliate and end Saul’s life but he refused. David saw value in Saul’s life by looking at him through the eyes of God instead of through his own victim eyes. He showed no signs of hatred or vengeance towards Saul but instead pleaded with him time after time to see his heart – to see that he loved the king and would be loyal to him.

“Some of my men told me to kill you, but I spared you. For I said, ‘I will never harm the king – he is the Lord’s anointed one’” (1 Samuel 24:10b).

David’s men encouraged him to take advantage of these opportunities by killing Saul, but David was looking to God for his reward, not for the praise of men. “The Lord gives his own reward for doing good and for being loyal, and I refused to kill you even when the Lord placed you in my power, for you are the Lord’s anointed one. Now may the Lord value my life, even as I have valued yours today. May he rescue me from all my troubles” (26:23-24).

Because of Saul’s jealousy, David was forced to live among the Philistines – who also rejected him. He tried to join their army, but they sent David and his men back home because they were foreigners and the rulers did not trust them. When David and his men returned to their home, it had been destroyed and their families captured. His men wept and became bitter, but David “found strength in the Lord his God” (30:6). God was faithful and gave David and his men victory over those who had raided their homes, and they were reunited with their family members receiving back all of their possessions and more.

So what can I find in my morning coffee to energize me spiritually today? To value life as God values life, and to trust God with all He has given me, finding my strength in God and God alone. There may be times when we suffer due to the choices of others. There may be times when we would be justified in our retaliation or anger. But my soul will not find rest in hatred or self-pity. It will find rest in God alone. God is God and if we truly trust Him, we will leave justice in His hands and look to Him for our reward and for our rescue.

In the words of David:
My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
How long will you assault a man?
Would all of you throw him down – this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
They fully intend to topple him from his lofty place; they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless, but in their hearts they curse.
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge…
One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard:
That you, O God, are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving.
Surely you will reward each person according to what he has done (Psalm 62:1-8,11-12).

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Don’t judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The Lord doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7).

I love the humble servant attitude with which David started out his reign. He had just been anointed King and, although God saw his heart, everyone around him continued to define him by his age, appearance and past. Instead of stepping into power, David became the harp player for King Saul. When told about David’s musical talented, Saul was also told that David was a brave warrior, a man of war, and had good judgment – that he was a fine-looking young man, and that the Lord was with him (16:18). But Saul only saw a servant who could meet his own needs. David humbly accepted this servant position.

Saul was not the only one who did not see David as a brave warrior and a man of war. When David arrived at the battle against the Philistines, his brothers asked him, “What are you doing around here anyway? What about those few sheep you’re supposed to be taking care of?” When David volunteered to fight Goliath, Saul’s reactions was, “Don’t be ridiculous! There’s no way you can fight this Philistine and possibly win! You’re only a boy, and he’s been a man of war since his youth” (17: 28, 33).

David could have announced to all of them in that moment that he was the new King of Israel but, instead of informing them of who he was, he pointed out to them who God is! “I have been taking care of my father’s sheep and goats. When a lion or a bear comes to steal a lamb from the flock, I go after it with a club and rescue the lamb from its mouth. If the animal turns on me, I catch it by the jaw and club it to death. I have done this to both lions and bears, and I’ll do it to this pagan Philistine, too, for he has defied the armies of the living God! The Lord who rescued me from the claws of the lion and the bear will rescue me from this Philistine!” (17:34-37a).

When Goliath referred to David as a “stick” whose body would soon be eaten by wild animals (17:43), David informed Goliath of his own future. “You come to me with sword, spear, and javelin, but I come to you in the name of the Lord of Heaven’s Armies – the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. Today the Lord will conquer you, and I will kill you and cut off your head. And then I will give the dead bodies of your men to the birds and wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel! And everyone assembled here will know that the Lord rescues his people, but not with sword and spear. This is the Lord’s battle, and he will give you to us!” (17:45-57).

After this battle, Saul no longer saw David as a humble servant but as a threat to his own popularity and throne. David spent the next few years running from Saul’s anger and attempts to kill him, a time when he possibly wrote many of the Psalms that now help us when we face hard times. Saul hunted him day after day, but God didn’t let Saul find him (23:14). Once more, God was protecting David.

It will help me today to remember that no matter what I face, this is the Lord’s battle. Titles aren’t important, but a humble servant heart is – a heart willing to do whatever God asks me to do today. And it is important that my head remain focused on who God is and not on who I am or on who others say I am. God defines me – no one else. Because when it comes right down to it, it is not about who I am but about who He is.

I love you, O Lord, my strength.
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. (Psalm 18:1-3)

In the next few chapters of 1 Samuel, there are three different scenarios of someone inquiring of the Lord, each different in the timing.

The first is found in King Saul’s statement (13:12), “The Philistines are ready to march against us at Gilgal, and I haven’t even asked for the Lord’s help!” Have you ever found yourself part way into a decision or situation or simply into your day and then realize you haven’t even asked God what He wants you to do or asked for his help? I can relate to Saul in this situation. There have been times when it has dawned on me that I am charging ahead without inquiring of the Lord. In this situation, Saul finds himself reacting out of panic and making a bad choice because he had not taken the time to involve God sooner. Been there, done that.

Then there is Saul’s son, Jonathan. His statement in 14:6 describes a slightly different scenario: “PERHAPS the Lord will be us, for nothing can hinder the Lord. He can win a battle whether he has many warriors or only a few!” Jonathan did not take the time to consult with Saul or with the Lord. Instead he came up with his own plan. Jonathan’s attitude was one of – I’m going to do what I want to do and hopefully the Lord will bless it. Ouch! I’m afraid I have been guilty of this one too. Fortunately for Jonathan and all the Israelites, God did choose to use the immature actions of the king’s son to confuse the Philistines and help the Israelite army of 600 men defeat the large Philistine army (as many warriors as the grains of sand on the seashore – 13:5).

Lastly let’s look at a statement made by the priest Ahijah, Eli’s great-grandson: “Let’s ask God first” (14:36). Now this is more like it. Thankfully I can relate to this statement as well and this is where I want to start my day as I drink my morning coffee, going to God is prayer.

Saul and Jonathan were both doing a good thing. After all, they were putting their life at risk by leading the Israelite army in efforts to protect all of the people – they were prepared to fight to defend the freedom of their families. But in the words of Samuel in 15:22, “Obedience is better than sacrifice, and submission is better than offering the fat of rams.”

What I plan to do with my day today may be a GOOD thing or even a sacrificial thing but, if I have not consulted with God to see what He wants me to do today, then I may miss out on what is better – the opportunity to do a GOD thing!

Precious Father, before I get any farther into my day, I submit to your plan – to your sovereignty. Guide me down the paths you want me to walk today. Use me in whatever way you desire. I want to do more than just make sacrifices for what seems like a good purpose, I want every action to be in obedience and submission to your leading. God, nothing can hinder you. You can win a battle whether you have many warriors or only a few! Choose my battles for me and lead me into your will. Thank you for living in me and working through me today. Amen.

I see now when pastors’ kids first started getting a bad reputation. Just like Eli’s sons were wicked in the sight of the Lord, Samuel’s sons “accepted bribes and perverted justice” (1 Samuel 8:3). The people of Israel saw this and, because they had their eyes on other nations instead of on God (8:20), they asked for a king. Samuel did what all of us should do – he “went to the Lord for guidance” (8:6).

God’s people were asking for something that was outside of His plan for them. He warned them they would someday beg for relief from this king they were requesting, no – more like demanding (8:18). But God, being a merciful God, heard the cries of his people and gave them what they were asking for – a king.

On Monday we talked about how each year Samuel would have to discard of the comfortable coat he had finally grown into and replace it with the new “bigger coat” that his mother had brought him (2:19). We now meet a young man who is about to receive a “bigger coat” and his reaction might be similar to our reaction when God moves us into a situation that seems to us beyond what we can handle.

I guess you could say Samuel told Saul that he would receive a “bigger coat,” more like a kingly robe, and Saul’s reaction was one of humility and fear. He did what many of us have a history of doing when God tries to stretch us – he told God he had the wrong person. “But I’m only from the tribe of Benjamin, the smallest tribe in Israel, and my family is the least important of all the families of that tribe! Why are you talking like this to me?” (9:21).

But just like God promises us, He equipped Saul for what He was calling him to do. Saul was “changed into a different person.” Samuel encouraged Saul to do what must be done – the thing God was calling Saul to do – for God would be with him. God “gave him a new heart” and everything God had promised would happen, happened (10:6-9).

As I drink my morning coffee, I know the “bigger coat” God is placing on me right now, but what is God calling you to that seems beyond what you are capable of? Are you nervous or scared or intimidated by God’s plan? So was Saul. When they went to crown Saul king, they found him hiding among the baggage (10:22). Are you hiding or resisting?

Friend, please know that God is with you. The first situation that came up during his reign, “the Spirit of God came powerfully upon Saul, and he became very angry” (11:7). Just one month after being placed in the position of King, Saul was finding his way and stepping into the leadership for which God was equipping him – just like He will equip you.

So let me do what Samuel did in his farewell speech to God’s people, let me remind you of all the great things the Lord has done for you and for your family (12:7). Look back and see how faithful God has been time and time again. Consider Samuel’s words of reassurance to the Israelites: “Don’t be afraid. You have certainly done wrong, but make sure now that you worship the Lord with all your heart, and don’t turn your back on him” (12:20).

God understands that you are not feeling worthy or that you are uncomfortable with what is happening around you against your choice. He knows you haven’t lived a perfect life or that you want things back to the way they used to be. But what God is asking for is that you worship Him with ALL your heart. Don’t hold back or turn away from what He is asking you to do but worship God by accepting His plan.

“And I will continue to teach you what is good and right. But be sure to fear the Lord and faithfully serve him. Think of all the wonderful things he has done for you” (1 Samuel 12:23b-24).

God is so faithful to meet with us when we enter into His presence. He filled my cup to overflowing this morning as I met with Him over a cup of my morning coffee…

There were some treacherous things going on at the place of worship where Samuel was now living and growing. Eli’s sons had no respect for the Lord or for the sacrifices God’s people were coming to Shiloh to offer. Eli went to his sons saying, “I have been hearing reports from all the people about the wicked things you are doing. Why do you keep sinning? You must stop, my sons!” (1 Sam. 2:23-24).

But Eli did not remove his sons from their place of honor when they continued sinning so the Lord sent a message to Eli through a man of God: I have revealed myself to your ancestors, I chose your family for this ministry, I assigned you to something very holy. Why do you scorn all of this by giving your sons more honor than you give me? You and your sons have become fat from the best offerings of my people Israel! (2:27-29). In essence God was saying – they are sacrificing while you are indulging.

Eli’s sons were sinning against God by what they did. Eli was sinning against God by what he did NOT do. All were disobedient and all were punished by God. God had placed Eli in leadership within the people of Israel and his failure to be the spiritual leader God had called him to be caused his death, the death of his two sons, the death of 30,000 Israelite soldiers and the capturing of the Ark of the Covenant by the Philistines (1 Sam. 4).

Our sin and disobedience to God can destroy our lives and destroy those around us. God has a plan to use us in the lives of others but what happens when we choose our own ways instead of His? What happens when we disobey or delay our obedience rather than respond as Samuel did?

Samuel’s response to the voice of God was, “Speak, Lord, your servant is listening.” Samuel’s obedience resulted in the Lord continuing to speak to him, giving messages for Samuel to repeat to the people of Israel. They would in turn repeat the message and God’s message would go out to all the people of Israel because of Samuel’s obedience (3:10, 21).

Samuel knew the purpose to which God had called him. He knew he had been given to God – he knew where he came from and Samuel knew to whom he now belonged. Because Samuel was obedient and willing to be used by God in the lives of others, the Israelites got rid of their images of Baal and Ashtoreth and worshiped only the Lord (7:3-4).

Samuel prayed for God’s people and led them in confession and fasting. His humble servant attitude led the people of Israel to know that it was not Samuel who could save them, but the God to whom Samuel prayed. “Don’t stop pleading with the Lord our God to save us from the Philistines!” they begged Samuel…He pleaded with the Lord to help Israel and the Lord answered him (7:8-9).

Dear Jesus, I desire to have a servant heart as Samuel did. God show me any disobedience in my life – disobedience by what I am doing or by what I am NOT doing. May I not get fat on your blessings but know that I am saved to serve, that I have been chosen by you for a role in the lives of others. Lord, use me and hear my prayers on the behalf of others as I plead for their salvation and healing. Forgive me and empty me out of anything that is me so that I may be filled with You and You only today. May I always know to whom I belong. Amen.

“I asked the Lord to give me this boy, and he has granted my request. Now I am giving him to the Lord, and he will belong to the Lord his whole life.” And they worshipped the Lord there. Then Hannah prayed:
“My heart rejoices in the Lord!
The Lord has made me strong,
Now I have an answer for my enemies,
I rejoice because you rescued me.
No one is holy like the Lord!
There is no one besides you;
There is no Rock like our God.” – 1 Samuel 1:27-2:2

As we talked about yesterday, Hannah prayed for a larger sacrifice and God answered her prayer. After giving her son to the Lord, Hannah was filled with joy as she worshipped God – a much different emotion for Hannah then the bitter anguish she was experiencing before God answered her prayer. After making what had to be a difficult sacrifice for a mother, God faithfully gave Hannah joy in place of her sacrifice. Her faith was strengthened and she knew the Lord, the Rock, was the source of her strength.

But Samuel, though he was only a boy, served the Lord. He wore a linen garment like that of a priest. Each year his mother made a small coat for him and brought it to him when she came with her husband for the sacrifice (1 Sam. 2:18-19).

Last year my dear friend, Dave Brown, gave me this passage of Scripture as I was grieving the loss of one ministry and preparing for the next. He pointed out that the coat Hannah brought Samuel each year must have been too big for him in order for him to be able to grow into it by the end of the year. As soon as the coat fit, she’d give him a new one.

Sometimes God gives us a new coat, a bigger coat. The price of our faithfulness in what God has given us is that sometimes He takes that away and gives us something new that requires that same faithfulness. He moves us out of our comfortable, broken-in coat into a new “bigger coat.”

This was a great reminder for me this morning as our family experiences the mixed emotions of having last year’s comfortable coat removed and God placing on our shoulders a new coat that doesn’t seem to quite fit yet. Perhaps God is trying to place a new coat on you as well, one you are resistant or uncomfortable in. Like Hannah, we can rejoice with confidence that we serve a holy God who is strong like a Rock and gives us strength for whatever sacrifice He is asking us to make.

I am reminded of a song today as I drink my morning coffee – “Strong Enough” by Matthew West. There are times when we may feel like we are not strong enough, but perhaps it is in these weakest moments that we begin “looking up and reaching out.” God’s hands of mercy will cover us and be strong enough for both of us. We don’t have to be “strong enough.” We need to give up and let God be “strong enough.” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8JsRxVczmQ&feature=related

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength (Phil. 4:13).

Since drinking my morning coffee last Thursday, I have not been able to get out of my mind Epaphras and how he prayed hard and earnestly for others. My prayer is that God will show me how to pray like Epaphras (Col. 4:12-13). Having finished the study of James and then Colossians, I went back this morning to where we left off in the Old Testament in February, bringing me to 1 Samuel. And just like God has a tendency to do, he brought my mind back to how I pray and the heart behind my prayers.

In the first chapter we read the wonderful story of Hannah, a woman who prayed to God and her prayers were answered. Hannah was barren and wanted to have a baby so she prayed to God hard and with earnest. Well, the exact description of her prayer is “out of great anguish and sorrow.” I’ve read this story so many times and have always been able to relate to Hannah’s heart because of my own struggle with infertility before I was healed. Today God showed me something different in Hannah’s story that I have never noticed.

Each year Elkanah would travel to Shiloh to worship and sacrifice to the Lord of Heaven’s Armies at the Tabernacle…On the days Elkanah presented his sacrifice, he would give portions of the meat to Peninnah and each of her children. And though he loved Hannah, he would give her only one choice portion because the Lord had given her no children…Each time, Hannah would be reduced to tears and would not even eat. “Why are you crying?” Elkanah would ask. “Why aren’t you eating? Why be down so downhearted just because you have no children? You have me – isn’t that better than having ten sons?”

Once after a sacrificial meal at Shiloh, Hannah got up and went to pray…Hannah was in deep anguish, crying bitterly as she prayed to the Lord. And she made this vow: “O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, if you will look upon my sorrow and answer my prayer and give me a son, then I will give him back to you. He will be yours for his entire lifetime, and as a sign that he has been dedicated to the Lord, his hair will never be cut.” – 1 Samuel 1:3-11

I always thought Hannah wanted a child so that she could have a child. Makes sense to me. But then she gives him back to the Lord and is again without a child – a part of the story that always confused me. Her intent was always to give the child back to God, not just in the way we do when we dedicate our children to the Lord but to literally give her child to the Church and again be without him. I believe today I understand Hannah for the first time.

Because Hannah had no children, she had less to give to God. She prayed for a child so that she could give the most incredible sacrifice a mother could ever give, her son. God saw Hannah’s heart, saw it was out of love for God that she asked for something God would see as priceless and beyond the value of any other sacrifice. God, who knew He would one day offer His own son as a sacrifice, understood the cost – God understood Hannah’s heart and answered her prayer.